Love can be shocking. Gasp!
Back when it came out, I mentioned Gasp! was available and counseled you all to go bu it based on the fact I've loved ZAM's books in the past. I hadn't had the chance to read it yet, but now I have, and let me tell you, I still counsel you all to go get it, if you haven't already, and read it. It is as good as I expected it to be.
Based on the cover, I thought there would be more of a rocker feel, but you know, once I was invested, I didn't much care. This is a love story, and what an amazing one it is. There are so many sides to Nigel Gasp that calling him a rocker is selling him short by a long shot. And then looking at the cover again after I'd read the book, there's that thing you don't notice for what it really is, and it's a beautiful echo of everything Nigel is portrayed as inside. His little secrets and insecurities are there, hidden in plain sight, and I'm still marveling at how ZAM did that with his character.
Then there's Jeff. I found there were a few moments when I wanted to sit Jeff down and have a stern talk with him. He made, well, we'll say "a few blunders", because he didn't trust himself or his feelings or, most importantly, Nigel. Granted, Nigel had a rep for not being trustworthy when it came to his love and sex life, but still. He witnessed Nigel changing before his eyes and he still imagined that change would fly out the window as soon as Nigel when back on the road. I thought that was a bit uncharitable of him.
And at the same time, there were moments when he was the most generous, patient and accepting soul imaginable, and exactly what needy little Nigel required at the time.
I loved that about him, and I couldn't quite get so mad at him I didn't want to finish the book. In fact, once he figured his shit out, I cheered all the harder when he came to Nigel's emotional rescue, and their happy ending was that much more meaningful because they both had to grow and improve to finally reach it. For me, that is by far the most satisfying way to end a story, love story or otherwise, and this truly was a tale about real love, between the guys, and the love threaded through their family. Great book. Go read.
You can pick it up at LooseId
Blurb: Jeff Paxton came home from Afghanistan looking to put down roots. Instead his pregnant sister talks him into a job babysitting the volatile megastar Nigel Gasp. Nigel is stubborn, needy, and determined to be the center of attention everywhere he goes. Before long, Jeff realizes that something is bothering Gasp, and that keeping him out of trouble might be more difficult than he thought.
Nigel never planned on getting old. He simply assumed a hard drinking, hard partying lifestyle would take care of that. Now that he's turning forty, he's depressed and a little bit desperate. To Nigel, forty seems like a fine age to deposit his DNA and check out while he's still on top.
The last thing Jeff needs is to fall in love with Nigel Gasp. The last thing Nigel expects is a whole new reason to live. But how can Jeff put down roots with a man who is never in the same place twice?